database doesn't like this move, and prefers d4. White would control d4 if he played it, and c3 is hung.

get away from queenside; however b2 is hung. knight is going to be in trouble. I'm dead.

setup for nc7.

? not sure why I left my white squared bishop open.

? and not sure why he didn't take the freebie first.

! now to protect queen, black must sacrifice his knight.

?! not sure here. trading queens might have been a better move.

I was anticipating kd8 or kc8. My mind tricked me into thinking the queen would be protecting the knight on a8.

so here I thought I would have mate, until I actually 'saw' the position, made the move anyway and offered a draw. I also considered qc6 or nc6 and playing on.