I wish you and your family lots of strength to overcome this terrible loss Akizy. As a catperson myself I know what you are going through. I remember all my lost freinds to be in a special place where all animal go when they leave their beloved homes. That place is called "Rainbow Bridge". All live there for eternity and play with each other and the other animals. If you listen very carefully you can still them talk to you ... and they will tell you that they miss you, but that they are happy at Rainbow Bridge.