Originally posted by boarmanboarman, i refuse to respond to your messags when i can in here --- in april i will have a history major, psychology minor, certificate in the liberal arts, and then when i complete my practium i will also have a B ED to go with my BA as well as an enviormental educaiton minor and a learning disablities minor, i'm a keener 😀😀😀😀😀 (also on the cheerleading team, snowboardering team, archery, swing dancing, write for the paper etc. ) can you tell i love school ? 😉 i figured that if i am going to be in school my whole life may as well get the degrees i want 😀😀😀😀😀
we will need to talk a lot then
Originally posted by indigodreamhere hun...just for you 😉
LMAO -- i do talk alot 😉 mokko, the poem you wrote early is so stunning, i just tried to copy and past it, but since i can't; could you please re-type it in here so that we have the best thread ever? by the way, for the newcomers, please read the "what if a day" thread, but respond in this thread, if you understand what i mean 😀
A friend of mine was over this morning as I was checking through the forum.....out of comlpete and total boredom 🙁.....anyway.....I was feeling very sad at the moment and it was the first thing I thought as I wrote. There are other ways to deal with painfull feelings besides shutting them down. Sometimes just writing out the pain (or happiness) i your heart is much more benificial in the long run.
What if a day........
held promise and love
gave us the strength to rise up above
led us through troubles and seen us through pain
helped ease all our tension, help lessen the strain
What if a day........
could shelter our heart
from the ache of despair that tears us apart
would we still be unhappy with a day without sorrow
or would be live in the fear of what may be tomorrow.
i don't always shut down, i'll post a poem i wrote a long time ago to show how i feel about emotions.....
Love
A fatal blow to the heart
Which rips apart reason
And leaves one disjointed and helpless
When situations turn deadly
The heart does not listen
And urges one to stay
Consciousness becomes blurry, unclear.
The thriving beat pulses to dominate;
And the cerebrum vibrates logic.
The clashing forces wrench one’s soul
And the body cannot create consensus.
What is one to do?
What can one do?
NOTHING
Or………
Is that just the right atria speaking?
The heart causes trouble when one succumbs to it alone
A balance must be reached
And a line drawn
Without boundaries the heart will dictate all
And too plump with its own ego and mass
Collapse.
believe me though, i didn't have strong feelings for the guy, what upsets me though is that i was working the drive thru at starbucks the day before christmas eve, and i saw him pull up to the liquor store in the same complex, i was so giddy, the car just stayed at the window as i laughed, and thats when i decided that i shouldn't be that excited to see someone, i mean; i was almost tempted to yell hey from across the parking lot, and i realized, why should i care? why after closing off for so long has this person had the ability to make me feel like putty? so instead of being rational and going home i stopped by his house which was two mins away to get my stuff because i had told his friend something when i was drunk and i wanted him to know the truth, because i am a happy person, but i didn't want him to find out later and feel like i had lied to him; and there has been no contact, he didn't ansrew the door, so thats why im going to forget about the material objects and try to forget about him
the thing is, i wasn't even thinking of him, and the past three nights i had gone out with friends, its not like i wait to see him, but i don't know, i guess i'm scared that i even care as much as i do after only hanging out 4 times, it seems so irrational, so i just don't want to feel those feelings, i'd rather be alone
Originally posted by indigodreamIt's ok to feel those feelings and to follow your heart. BUT.....it's not alright if the other person doesn't feel the same way.
the thing is, i wasn't even thinking of him, and the past three nights i had gone out with friends, its not like i wait to see him, but i don't know, i guess i'm scared that i even care as much as i do after only hanging out 4 times, it seems so irrational, so i just don't want to feel those feelings, i'd rather be alone
Those feelings you have will come around again....and more likely again after that. But one day you'll have those feelings towards somebody that feels the same way.....somebody who wouldn't be able to go into a store so close by without first running in to say hello or even bring you flowers.
It's much better to give that kind of person all those wonderfull feelings which cause so much fear. Because you'll know that they are just as fearful as you are. And when you do meet that person you have to be ready to let go of the fear and trust in love and that it won't hurt you.
It will hurt if you waste it on the wrong person...and that hurt is meant to teach us to be more cautious.
Originally posted by boarmanNO! no poor thing! lol --- i'm the idiot, if i had just gone home.... its totally nothing to feel bad about me for, i am just torn up inside, thats all, i refuse to be upset, i will continue with my life, i will not let it affect me, it was a stupid mistake to care, we never dated, he was only a friend, therefore there is NOTHING to be upset about! i don't want to be upset that is......... okay fine, i am, but i will only admit it once, and this is that time
you poor thing
Originally posted by mokkoby the way, i've been engaged before........ every relationship i've ever been in though i've dumped the guy; i dumped my ex-fiance on our two year becuse he wanted me to run away and leave my life...... the way i look at it i have been so blessed and experienced so much love in my life already, that i don't care if i ever date again, because i have enough good memories to last me a life time, and its not like i ever dated the guy anyways, he was just a friend
It's ok to feel those feelings and to follow your heart. BUT.....it's not alright if the other person doesn't feel the same way.
Those feelings you have will come around again....and more likely again after that. But one day you'll have those feelings towards somebody that feels the same way.....somebody who wouldn't be able to go into a store so close by ...[text shortened]... u waste it on the wrong person...and that hurt is meant to teach us to be more cautious.