21 Oct '10 01:59>1 edit
I'll spare everyone the details, but non-chess events have resulted in a poor week for me, and it has spilled over into my chess world in the form of some 5 outright blunders and a few other poor moves or ideas that have resulted in my losing several games in rapid succession this week.
I would have been far better off to have just made the minimum moves necessary this week to get by until I sailed into calmer waters, but my desire to play overwhelms my desire to win many times, and I continue well after the point where I should have called it a night and stopped.
Sometimes I feel like I cheat the game a little bit with my "less than best" effort, but I also know that if I waited until I was "at my best", I would rarely play at all.
This leads to my not-so-rhetorical question- why do we play?
For me, I seem to enjoy the competition, but I only really care about winning if I am involved in a team event (where others depend on my result), or if the other guy is an @$$- I hate losing to @$$holes. Mostly, I play for the competition and to test new ideas and enjoy interesting positions.
Although when I lose, I sometimes wonder...
I would have been far better off to have just made the minimum moves necessary this week to get by until I sailed into calmer waters, but my desire to play overwhelms my desire to win many times, and I continue well after the point where I should have called it a night and stopped.
Sometimes I feel like I cheat the game a little bit with my "less than best" effort, but I also know that if I waited until I was "at my best", I would rarely play at all.
This leads to my not-so-rhetorical question- why do we play?
For me, I seem to enjoy the competition, but I only really care about winning if I am involved in a team event (where others depend on my result), or if the other guy is an @$$- I hate losing to @$$holes. Mostly, I play for the competition and to test new ideas and enjoy interesting positions.
Although when I lose, I sometimes wonder...