thing are not going too well down here. in fact things have never gone well. gods naughty step method of punishment for our wrong doings is wearing thin. he keeps saying he loves us but then he has a drink looses it, gives us a slap, kills 6 thousand, wakes up the next day hung over tells us it our fault, we were asking for it and he only does it because he loves us and that we dont get the bigger picture and we will thank him for it later.
why does he keep punishing us? why does he demand that we say we love him all the time? why does he keep all the money, spending it on his flashy churches while the family starves?
it sounds like he has low self esteem issues.possibly abused by his parents, possibly likes to self harm. if we love god we should help him help himself. lets believe in him, lets believe he can do a better job. we need to stop brushing the abuse under the carpet.admitting he has a problem is the first step on the path to forgiveness and a happy family life.