Originally posted by mokko
I have read alot of threads in this forum but have chose to not to get involved in any of the discussions. Tonight however as I sit here with my broken heart I feel like sharing a bit of my thoughts.
I have known a great many hardships in ...[text shortened]... ware of his presence or not.
And now I lay me down to sleep.
I think that was a courageous post of yours.
I'd say that the "spiritual process" (however we might think of that -- even just maturing in life) is furthered by the "hopeless heart", so to speak. I've been through many relationships and also searched through several spiritual traditions, so I can vouch for the reality of this "transcendent" or "comforting" feeling you speak of when referring to reaching a certain saturation point of emotional pain.
You could say that the condition of "hopelessness" is a necessary prerequisite for the deepening of the heart and the growing of the soul. By hopelesness here I don't meant the utter despair of self-loathing or pure defeatism or cynicism. More I'm referring to the deepening effect that happens when we begin to let go of some of the fairy tales that society conditions us to believe in -- the "knight in white armor", the "perfect maiden", and endless other pots of gold at the end of so-called rainbows. By living in constant "hope" about some possible future we've been conditioned to hope for, or consant lamentation about what has passed under the bridge, we miss the wondrousness of this present moment.
Nature is a great teacher in that regard, quietly bringing us back to the simple sanity and goodness of this moment, when our mind is quiet and at rest. That "presence" that you sense, the comforting spirit, can also be seen as the goodness of your own heart when it's allowed to surface in one moment of mental exhaustion brought on by great emotional pain. In the very letting go
, there is peace, even if but for a split second.
And I think that's the key, right there. Letting go of attachments is key to a peaceful state of mind, or at the least, one that adapts to changes and doesn't just survive the experience, but grows wiser from it as well.
But clearly we can't "force" ourselves to let go of attachments. That doesn't work. We can however redirect the focus of our mind, away from the confusing, grasping, repetitive thoughts that cause pain, and into the present moment where the full energy of life truly is.