Well so far so good. Just logged in for first time, even though had the opportunity for a week. Thought I better move before 40 skulls appear/ed.
Not a drop since my last post. I was a bit more dependant than even I thought as I had a seizure after 32 hours. The hospital was super (well I WAS looked after by Thai nurse uniformed beauties - ooops 😲)
I did it alone - by me. That's the part I can take myself - I mean the admission and going and walking in alone (yes it was fearful).
On a serious note I have no idea what they treated me with but after 3 days it wasn't that difficult. The hard part starts now. Changing lifestyle or changing habits that lead to consuming what I don't want. I'm still on medication and shall be for 3 months or so (anti-psychotics and librium etc) but will learn with medical support to slowly adapt to not needing such. I have faced my devil and so far have crushed him... long may it continue. My aim is now never to have ONE. I cannot have ONE drink, because for me ONE becomes TWENTY very very quickly. I am now addicted to coke-a-cola and caffeine - but I think a fair substitute.
I can ignore some of the negativity from the prats who posted such. As for the other posts which I have just read, when there is a serious issue in somebody's life there is one heck of a community here at RHP that pulls together in support. I thank all of you who were positive.
At this moment I have no urge or compulsions at all to engage with alcohol and am spending so much time with my wife and son I think I'll probably only be about for an hour a day at most now. Psycho-therapy is a wonderful thing in opening oneself up like a book and telling internal truth to a specialist who can identify weaknesses to be worked upon.
It is early days, but I feel positive in that I have no compulsions (yet!). I have emergency contacts if the urge reoccurrs and shall use them. I thank Demonseed in particular for pointing out the true positive things in my life that I took for granted.
I am lucky in that I have a wonderful wife who has seen me through all this (pointing that I have never abused her but only myself!)
I feel good. I'm in complete control of my destiny now on a totally sober level - without the need for that weak back up that I thought made me feel better.
Thank you to all those who wished me luck - your thoughts have given me greater strength after returning to read them.
I also commit to still being able to post crap on a sober level, so expect some!! 😀
Thanks also for the pms of good wishes.... you are good friends! 😉
Best to all.
-M. 🙂
Originally posted by mikelomWise man, Mike, to realize that the true enemy of the past and the present warrior/ultimate hero of the future is not so much
Well so far so good. Just logged in for first time, even though had the opportunity for a week. Thought I better move before 40 skulls appear/ed.
Not a drop since my last post. I was a bit more dependant than even I thought as I had a seizure after 32 hours. The hospital was super (well I WAS looked after by Thai nurse uniformed beauties - ooops 😲)
I di ...[text shortened]... ks also for the pms of good wishes.... you are good friends! 😉
Best to all.
-M. 🙂
the yesterday you but the guy who now shaves with you each morning in the vanity mirror. How is Masterlom getting along?
-gb
Originally posted by mikelomDo they do the 12 Steps or AA there?
Well so far so good. Just logged in for first time, even though had the opportunity for a week. Thought I better move before 40 skulls appear/ed.
Not a drop since my last post. I was a bit more dependant than even I thought as I had a seizure after 32 hours. The hospital was super (well I WAS looked after by Thai nurse uniformed beauties - ooops 😲)
I di ...[text shortened]... ks also for the pms of good wishes.... you are good friends! 😉
Best to all.
-M. 🙂
Originally posted by mikelomWell Done! All the best to you on the road to recovery. I am happy you found that inner courage my friend!
Well so far so good. Just logged in for first time, even though had the opportunity for a week. Thought I better move before 40 skulls appear/ed.
Not a drop since my last post. I was a bit more dependant than even I thought as I had a seizure after 32 hours. The hospital was super (well I WAS looked after by Thai nurse uniformed beauties - ooops 😲)
I di ...[text shortened]... ks also for the pms of good wishes.... you are good friends! 😉
Best to all.
-M. 🙂
stay away from routines/situations that used to involve drinking, and you'll be fine. that might mean you need to cut some 'friends' as well.
zero drinks is always far easier to keep than 'moderation'. and if you're the kind who can't take 'just one', then that's how the cards are dealt. I've seen people like that succumb to years of drinking after taking one sip after 10 years of sobriety. so if you know that's you, and it sounds like you do, never give the juice half a chance. no matter what.
Originally posted by kirksey957AA has 12 steps... you still pick a sanctum and a higher power... the only time you don't do 12 steps is if your going to AA group therapy, and thats because AA group therapy is meant to be a part of all of it... so you'd be skipping part of the program.
Do they do the 12 Steps or AA there?
i know, i've failed it several times.
You are definitely a hero. The only drink you will ever have to refuse is the next one. The hardest part was making the decision to do it, the rest is just mechanics. You no longer have to wonder if you can do it, you know damned well you can. We are so proud of you.
Dear Mike,
It is with profound joy that I read your post. I am the son of an alcoholic, and have seen the devestation that it causes families first hand. You have made the right choice, and i pray that you continue to make the right choice in the future. You and your family will remain in my prayers
God Bless,
D.