"I was hoping for a game that put me in a better light..."
You learn a lot more from losses and if it comes with a good ribbing
then all the better - you won't do it again.
Remember. No excuses....you played a lemon, let it sink in and try
not to do it again.
I've played a lot worse and I've seen a lot worse.
I think you have to commit every error in the book to learn how
to play the game.
Getting told not to do something does not carry the same weight as
actually playing the bad move and then seeing and feeling the
consequences.