Finally got this pgn thing working!
The other side of the coin.
The top secret file of my recorded in-game thoughts (thus without hindsight),hopes and fears.And a small part of the variations I analysed.
You get a rare insight into my brain.Read at own risk.
1. e4 c5 2. Nf3 Nc6 3. d4 cxd4 4. Nxd4 e5 5. Nb5 d6 6. N1c3 a6 7. Na3 Nf6
8. Nc4 b5 9. Ne3 b4 {?! pawn grabbing is risky here - de la Villa} 10. Ncd5 Nxe4
11. a3 {! de la Villa's suggested idea} Qa5 { ?! book gives 11....,bxa3 with the only alternative 11...,b3.So I'm now out of book,hopefully I can still benefit somewhat from the play and ideas of those two moves it does discuss} 12. Nc4 {Ok,so de la Villa tells me Qa5 is a bad move.But how do I profit from it?Let's just drive that queen back and then see what I can do} Qc5 {? I thought Qd8 was forced.What does this do?threatens mate in 1,but I can defend with an attack on the queen and then win a rook with a knightfork.Seems like I must be easily winning.ok} 13. Nc7+ {The check needs to come first: 13.Be3,Nd4 and the queen covers c7} Kd8 14. Be3 Nd4 15. Nxa8 d5 16. Bxd4 {The knight can't move because of the threat on c2,my king could die very quickly.16.axb4,Qxb4+ 17.c3,Nxc3 is perhaps an option but I'm not so sure.Too complicated.Let's kill off an attacker,then my knight can move too} exd4 17. Ne5 {Threatening Nxf7+ winning a 2nd rook.And if 17...,d3 then 18.Nxd3 defends the mate on f2.ok} bxa3 18. Rb1 {18.Nxf7+?Not the time to get greedy,I'm under heavy fire here!hm,18.Rxa3 as in the book (in a different position) doesn't seem to work now: 18.Rxa3,Qb4+ 19.c3,Qxb2 and I'm losing the rook,he has a passed a-pawn and a mate threat.No,that can't be good.18.Nd3 then?but I really don't want to retreat that knight.18.bxa3,Qc3+ can't be right,so that leaves Rb1.This is getting really complicated.Am I still better?Was I even better to begin with?} axb2 19. Bd3 {Getting the bishop out.I want my king in his castle!} Nc3 {Uh!Totally missed that!} 20. Nxf7+ {Nothing I can do,the rook's toast.That b-pawn's about to queen.I'm probably losing now.Or not?Right,only one option.....ATTACK!} Ke8
21. Qh5 Nxb1 22. Nxh8+ g6 23. Bxg6+ {Must keep attack flowing.Sac knight or bishop?Forceful moves!Nothing more forceful than a check.I like knights better anyway} hxg6 24. Qxg6+ Kd8 25. Nf7+ Ke7 26. O-O {Tuck the king away and activate the last piece} Nc3 27. Re1+ Ne4 28. Ng5 {Now what?Can't sac the rook.28.f3 loses to d3+ followed by d2.Queen's got nothing.c-pawn hangs.b1 queening threat.I have to attack his king,got nothing else.So the f7 knight,28.Ne5 vacates f7 for the queen,ok,but then 28....,Be6,bleh.There's better,28.Ng5 attacks his pinned piece and vacates f7 for the queen.Yes,that must be it} Kd8 29. Nxe4 {Happy to see that beast go} dxe4
30. Qxe4 {the dust has settled somewhat.Don't relax!Still have to eliminate that b-pawn.Keeping my c-pawn is important too} Bd7 31. Qb7 {hitting b2 while protecting c2 with tactics} Qxc2 {? Did I miss something again?} 32. Qb8+ {well,checked it 3 times,I don't see the problem,it's a forced mate} Bc8 33. Qb6+ Kd7 34. Qe6+ {Kinda funny how that wretched a8 knight is now useful} Kd8 35. Qe8