i finally figured out what i want to be in life. i want to be a rated chess master. not even a grand master, just a regular, everyday, plain old master. thing is, i'm, old (38, which isn't old, but then again, when you have 19 year old grand masters....), which doesn't really make sense to me. if i wanted to be a UFC champion, or win the Tour de France, then yeah, age is important, the body can only go so far for so long. but chess is mental. yes, it requires some imagination and memorization, but as long as i don't get alzhiemers anytime soon, or suffer any blunt trauma to the head, i should be able to learn and figure crap out enough to be decent enough to attain the rating of chess master. plus, while everyone else has to deal with jobs and school and such, i can spend most of my day studying.
so, that is what i wanna do. i've started a blog to track my progress, it's at: chessloser.wordpress.com.
laugh and jeer all you want, i think it's possible.