And if my studies did indeed give me measles, then your indoctrination by Witness Lee has given you brain freeze.
Your studies left you frozen in heart and conscience to God in that you don't believe (or at least you posture yourself publicly so) that God is not.
Now, the bible says, "The fool says in his heart, There is no God." (Psalm 14:1)
Now you may have Hebrew writing and reading skills and Greek writing and reading skills and can tell me all about the history of councils, Bible land geography, Roman politics, Greek philosophy and many, many other tangential things to the Bible.
But left frozen? You're the one left mind frozen and speaking as a FOOL. If you are really, in your heart, are reasoning there is no God. I'm not the one left frozen in foolishness. You are.