Originally posted by sophie jew jackson
am a shemale(b4 operation that is 2 say pre-op b4 the surgeon takes his knifes 2 chop me manhood)
as 4 darkside of the his lordship i am inded the devils child doing wat is so unatural 2 the untrained/irnorant eyes geting me sex changed 2 wat me mind/.heart determined i realy am)
also i do not no longer(after 45 long yrs blieve in the bibl ...[text shortened]... f god(in its entirity) as can now b seen by how i there4 treat god with the contempt he deserves
Perhaps you need to seek God beyond the bible. That is, perhaps it's not so much that your former theism that is faulty, but your formal biblical literalism.
You have bravely faced up to the fact that God, as portrayed in the bible, is sometime gravely unethical, particularly in the Old Testament.
However, there are other ways to regard God, or to be spiritual in a positive way, without taking everything in the bible literally as the inerrant word of God.
For example, not all Gods would regard your current gender status as a unethical or unwholesome state of affairs. Some Gods might think that you are, very ethically and bravely, trying to be true to yourself.
The world as we know it, including our own natures, is imperfect, and we have to make the best of it, or make artificial improvements were necessary. Nearly every useful human advances, including those we take for granted, are the result of artificial--and therefore technically "unnatural--interventions by men and women to improve their earthly situation. Medicine is not bad because it is completely unnatural, if it improves physical health; nor is getting a sexual reassignment bad, if it improves your psychological health. In fact, artificiality is often a very positive good.
So you are only a devil's child according to unenlightened fundamentalism. According to enlightened theism, you are a perfectly fine human being.