Originally posted by Bosse de Nage
How d'y'all cope with despair?
(Should anyone with to initiate a parallel discussion on Kierkegaard's text (available: http://www.religion-online.org/showbook.asp?title=2067 ) go ahead).
Well, despair is a good environment in which mental self-torture can incubate, in a strong sense: I find it's not a good environment for any of the other activities that take agency and motivation and such. MS-T takes a little effort (or a lot), though, so I consider it's spontaneous generation a bit of a step up from legit despair, part of whose
definition I take to be the inability to conceive of there being any steps up. Of course, MS-T that grows in non-despair circumstances is itself a good way to end up in a Despair Situation; it's very similar as a despair-exit to drug abuse in this respect.
I'm learning slowly to recognise when despair is not actually related to any of the things in my life I currently find important, which, if I limit myself to true
despair that I've been immersed in, is always -- my only despair-experiences are with endogenous despair. Trying to acknowledge the sheer luck that that represents is itself kind of a despair-exit I try to keep in mind.
The flip side of endogenous despair is endogenous euphoria. Simply because it involves
euphoria, this is perhaps far trickier. It's perhaps "The Sickness Unto Immortality".
I dealt with some of this very clumsily in my entry in the Verse Competition: "The Blanket Out of Time and Space".