Here it is, a week before Thanksgiving in the U.S., and I have been having a seriously up and down year. The best thing that has happened is, my wife and I have bought our first home. But now comes the rest.
My daughters (I have 3) have a half sister all of 4 years old, has contracted some kind of brain cnacer. Please don't ask me what it is call, I only know it is inoperable, and has a very small survival rate. I feel sorry for the child, and I am in a wierd position because of the fact that it is my ex's and her husband. The man she was cheating on me with. I am trying to be there for my kids though, but as you can imagine I am not the most welcomed person in their house.
Now I have been informed that my favorite Aunt has also contracted cnacer, hers in her stomach. it is operable, but no one knows how far it has spread yet. This has me torn apart at the moment.
It hasn't been all bad though. after all I am 2 months away from my 4th aniversary with my current and last wife (I love her to deeply to even consider leaving) My children do love me still. and I have a few possibilities for a huge pay raise in a different company.
I'm not really sure why I am sharing all this. I guess I just wanted to put it down in words for myself to read.
I recently pulled up an old thread of mine labelled a stick Thread 32464 just remembering the old days (old for me that is). Sure it was a very violent time then in the world around me, but I was a kid with little worries, a family that loved me, Uncles who taught me how to play chess (I'm still not a great player but I really enjoy the game), and a mother who supported me. I didn't turn out to be the next president, but I am doing ok, and she is proud of that.
So this is a glimpse into my life. It isn't much but it is mine. It has heartaches and loves, pains and gains. all the things that the normal American has. (BTW on a side note. I don't support the war in Iraq, I do support our troops who are made to go in there anyway, and that is all I am going to say on that subject no matter the response I get.) I am doing better than some, worse than others, and happy with what I have. Sure there are desires to have more, but that is only natural. I am glad to be part of the RHP/TFC/RHC/CAW community and, for the most part, have been accepted into it. I never went out of my way to make some new aquaintences, but have a few friends now.
If you read this thanks. Post a reply if you wish. or don't it doesn't really matter in the end anyway. after all this is just a chess site, Life or death decisions aren't made here. The biggest reason for this thread is just so I can get my words down.
Originally posted by KJCavalierI am sorry to hear that. I am currently working with a child who has a degenerative disease. Most children with that disease don't get older than four years. He has already lost most abilities. Normally when you work with children, even severely disabled children, you will see some development and progress. It's hard to accept that a child will not get better, but only worse. And it will be very tough when he dies, no matter how much we are prepared for it. Children aren't supposed to die.
My daughters (I have 3) have a half sister all of 4 years old, has contracted some kind of brain cnacer. Please don't ask me what it is call, I only know it is inoperable, and has a very small survival rate. I feel sorry for the child, and I am in a wierd position because of the fact that it is my ex's and her husband. The man she was cheating on me with. ...[text shortened]... for my kids though, but as you can imagine I am not the most welcomed person in their house.
I just finished reading a book about a child who died three years old, written by the leader of his kindergarten. Very moving, especially if you are going through this yourself. I would recommend it, but I don't think it has been translated to English.
Things will get back into something like order, sooner or later 🙁 It doesn't always seem that way...
😞 It's lucky that the world is such a terribly large place that we usually don't find ourselves the focus of disease and death and destruction - at least in most of the western world! - on a more regular basis. 😲 It's always going on but not always right there in our faces every waking minute of every day. And without trying to seem to trivialize your problems, KJ, we forget how good we've got it a lot of the time...
If I was a religious, I'd be saying a prayer for you 😕 Our hearts and hopes are such fragile things.
Originally posted by KJCavalierYou gets all my love!
Here it is, a week before Thanksgiving in the U.S., and I have been having a seriously up and down year. The best thing that has happened is, my wife and I have bought our first home. But now comes the rest.
My daughters (I have 3) have a half sister all of 4 years old, has contracted some kind of brain cnacer. Please don't ask me what it is call, I onl ...[text shortened]... n't made here. The biggest reason for this thread is just so I can get my words down.
Originally posted by KJCavalierI will pray for you and your loved ones. God bless you.
Here it is, a week before Thanksgiving in the U.S., and I have been having a seriously up and down year. The best thing that has happened is, my wife and I have bought our first home. But now comes the rest.
My daughters (I have 3) have a half sister all of 4 years old, has contracted some kind of brain cnacer. Please don't ask me what it is call, I onl ...[text shortened]... n't made here. The biggest reason for this thread is just so I can get my words down.
Originally posted by KJCavalierThanks for sharing. Sorry for your struggles. I'm amazed that behind our monitors as we play chess here is a world of people who know defeat on a very personal level. Keep finding friends to share with.
Here it is, a week before Thanksgiving in the U.S., and I have been having a seriously up and down year. The best thing that has happened is, my wife and I have bought our first home. But now comes the rest.
My daughters (I have 3) have a half sister all of 4 years old, has contracted some kind of brain cnacer. Please don't ask me what it is call, I onl ...[text shortened]... n't made here. The biggest reason for this thread is just so I can get my words down.