-Removed-It appears that a primary reason that you are a Christian today is because that's what you were introduced to in your youth, and you sort of went with it throughout your life. There also still seems to be a good amount of doubt in your beliefs, but you've got too much invested at this point to find an alternative belief, or to just discard Christianity altogether. If I'm right, I don't blame you, because believing in a God is entirely different than trying to believe everything that's laid out in the Bible.
-Removed-On paper, I would diagnose you as a deist who has anchored his belief in a God on something reassuring and tangible from his past, Jesus. For the average Christian, take away their Bible and you take away their faith. I don't think that applies to you, with your own belief in a deity of some description not entirely reliant on scripture.
In short, you are a deist wearing a Christian cardigan.
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@sonship saidCalling Jesus Lord does not fool anyone but yourself.
@divegeester- I believe in Jesus Christ, still, somehow.
Allow me to ask.
Do you believe in Jesus Christ?
Or do you believe in the Lord Jesus Christ?
And why call ye me, Lord, Lord, and do not the things which I say?
(Luke 6:46 KJV)