Originally posted by mokko
Some believe, some don't, some are unsure.
I believe in what is generally known as God. But I have never claimed to be able to define just what God is. It's taken me years of questioning, observing and seeking answers to get to the point I'm at in life now. Which is the same as anyone else. We simple don't know.
I know there is something beyond our und ...[text shortened]... a persons mind feel the need to justify such life experiences as either random or devine?
I can only talk about what I believe and what I have expereinced in regards to my own faith which is based in scripture. I will therefore talk in terms of the Christian faith. When Moses asked God who he should say has sent him God retorted, "I am that I am". He is simply the totality of reality. Can one fully understand or comprehend or label the totality of reality? If so that would make you equal or greater to him, no? However, this does not mean that we cannot come to know him if we choose to allow him to reveal himself to us.
As far as the rest of your post about feeling down and out a scripture came to mind that you may find inspirational.
2 Corinthians 12:7 .....there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure. For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me. And he said unto me, "My grace is sufficient for thee; for my strength is made perfect in weakness." Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
It seems as though Paul had a "thorn in the flesh". He does not extrapolate upon what this is, however. What this scripture says to me is that if we empty ourselves of ourselves, God can then fill the space that is emptied. Therefore, God is able to work better through us as he becomes stronger in us. It appears that this thorn in the flesh Pauls refers to, prevented him from being exalted in his own mind and getting a big head, so to speak. He even asks God to take it away but to no avail. It appears that God knows what is best for us even when that means we may suffer to some degree as a result. Had God removed the thorn Paul would have focused more on his own abilities and/or accomplishments and relied less on God. The problem with this, however, is that God is the powerfull one, not Paul. In effect, as Paul emptied himself of himself God filled this space which allowed the power of God to work through him. Thus he became more powerfull and effective as he became weaker in himself.
I can tell you that in my own life I can relate to Paul's suffering. One of the thorns in my life has been depression. What I have found is that the more I focused on myself and my own misfortune, the more depressed I became. Conversely, the more I focused on other things the less depressed I became. It seems as though depression is very narcassistic, or at least in my experience. I chose to focus on the things of God and the promises of God rather than my own misfortunes. Little by little it changed me. Although we all have a certain degree of inward strength, the real strength or greater strength comes from an outward source. The trick is learning to tap into it by emptying yourself of yourself and allowing God to work through you. As Christ says, "My grace is sufficient for you".