Originally posted by buckky
The older I get the more I question all my once strongly held beliefs. Was my youth nothing but an illusion? Now I feel somewhat lost as to what to believe politically or spiritually. Nothing makes much sense in the spiritual arena. Or at least nothing has been put to me that really knocks me off my feet with excitment. It all appears to be the same old rehas ve down here on earth. I want to hear it from the man Himself. If that's not asking to much.
What makes God not real to you has to be identified. Th barrier between you and the experience of God has to be identified. What is it? What is the problem that makes God not real to you?
What is the barrier? What is the wall between you and the realness of God?
Bucky, the obstacle is your sins. What you said that day ... what you did that day ... what you did that night ... what you said that night ... the way you treated that person .... the desire you nourished in your heart .... the action you took.
The log of trangressions of your sins and iniquities is the WALL that makes God feel unreal to you. I'm sorry that it is not something more interesting. But it is the problem of your real transgressions coming from real sins which have accumulated real and actual GUILT before God and in your own conscience.
Now here is what I would do if I were you:
Get alone somewhere. Start with the top of your head and work your way down to your feet:
Confess the sins of your eyes, what you gazed upon - as much as you are aware of.
Confess the sins of your mouth, as much as you can remember you spoke that was evil.
Confess the sins of your ears, what you have listened to that was unclean and sinful before God.
Confess the sins of your tongue, what you have tasted that was not pleasing to God.
Confess the sins of your hands, what you have handled that was not pleasing to God.
Confess the sins of your feet, where they have taken you that was not pleasing to God.
And any other sins of any other members of your body, you should confess. And as you confess your sins believe and CLAIM this promise from God's word:
"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9)
"But if we walk in the light as He is in teh light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanes us from every sin." (1 John 1:7)
Because Jesus shed His blood for the forgiveness of every sin, it is RIGHTEOUS of God to forgive everyone who confesses his or her sins trusting in the cleansing of the redemptive blood of Christ.
As you take Inventory you are not promising God that you will never do these things again. You cannot escape the power of sin except by the fulness of the Holy Spirit. You however agreeing with God, one by one that these were all trangressions and iniquities which you commited.
This time of confession may go from a few minutes to a few hours depending on how much the Spirit of God will bring to your memory and how much you are willing to admit and agree with God that you have sinned and are a helpless sinner who always offends God.
Once you have brought each and every one of these failures under the blood of Jesus there will be no problem with you sensing the REALNESS of GOD and the REALNESS of Jesus Christ. The obstacle is removed by your confession and His cleansing blood of redemption.
This is only the beginning. But realize that it is God's will that He be real to you. It is His good pleasure to give you the kingdom. You do not need to grovel. You do not need to beg.
But you do need to believe and to trust and to confess your sins, one by one, putting each under the blood of Jesus.
Christ will then be close and real to you. And your heart will be unspeakably at PEACE.
Let me know how it goes.