Originally posted by Marinkatomb
I exist. The more i think about it, the more ridiculous it is. What is my purpose other than procreation and what is the point in that anyway?
Recently i have been finding this terrifying. As i think about my existence and how improbable it is, i imagine what it is not to exist also. I find this is having the effect that my consciousness splutters an ...[text shortened]... thing! Do other people feel the same way? Is this normal? It's driving me to distraction.
I know the feeling. Too much introspection can lead to terrible mental frustration.
I am a Christian. And since the days of those hurricane like introspections about the existence of my own mind, I have learned to stretch out comfortable and be thankful for eternity.
I look out at the endless universe and feel at home in the infinite because I know that God loves me. I am thankful that I cannot squeeze all the universe into my brain. I am thankful for the comfortableness of infinity. It feels right.
It feels comfortable to rest in the love of the Father in the infinity of time and space and the mystery of my being. The love of Christ makes the mystery comfortable, pleasant, sweet, hospitable, and just right.
The love of God makes the creation and my own being fully at rest.
The Apostle Paul wrote these words which touched me very much:
"For I am persuaded that neither death nor life nor angels nor principalities nor things present nor things to come nor powers nor height nor depth nor any other creature will be able to seperate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Romans 8:38,39)
Don't let excessive introspection drive you crazy. Fall back in the trust of the love of the Savior Jesus Christ.
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