17 Jan '15 19:33>4 edits
Originally posted by BigDoggProblem
I am a former Christian who has read the Bible thoroughly.
I went through a period like this after having some fellowship with God definitely on a personal level.
I seemed to have blacked out or had some kind of amnesia for several years. What amazed me is that the Friend in God I did have a child, turned out to be real when I found my way to Him again as an adult.
I thought I had left God with childhood. It surprised me latter as an adult, after wandering around like a lost sheep, this God had indeed never ceased to be real.
Something like the saying - "If you don't feel close to God, guess who moved?"
When I was in the faith, I didn't think of it as a con game. As I gradually left, I begin to see Christianity from the outside. The main 'selling point' just struck me as a con game. It seemed more and more obvious the more I considered it.
My problem was more "What is it all for?"
I now see that God has an eternal purpose and just getting saved for it being an end in itself, is a superficial view of the Bible. It is valid that I need to be saved.
What I did not see what that God needed my salvation. Now I can say "Lord Jesus, for Your will and purpose you need me to be filled with You and joined to You."
This really places Christ in the center rather than just my happiness in the center.
When people speak of once believing and now not, it doesn't sound far off to me. Many many people in the Bible seemed to have received more than one calling.
Abraham did not obey God so readily and immediately.
Jacob, made promises to God and then forgot all about them.
Moses tried on his own energy to "do something" for God. And afterwards just kind of said "Forget about the whole thing."
God came to him a second time decades latter as he was tending flocks on the backside of the desert. Then he had lots of arguments. In essence I think he was saying to God at the burning bush - "Look I was once gung ho to do something for the Hebrew slaves as one sent by God when I was young. It blew up in my face. You didn't use me when I was young. Don't come to me now in my old age, because I have no more ambition this way. All I care about now is to just get a little pasture for these flocks. Go get someone else."
Forgive me for musing and probably wondering from your point.
But many people received a calling from God and another calling from God.
In the New Testament Peter was the leading disciple. Even after the resurrection he took the lead to go back to fishing. Then the Lord attracted him a second time.
And this was AFTER the resurrection!
It is not unusual that in the Bible men and women were encountered by a calling God a subsequent time. Anyway, even genuine "Been There Done That" from X Christians (that are real) are not that much out of character with some of the people joined to God throughout the Bible.