@kellyjay said
You may speak for yourself.
If you're a Christian, as you claim, then I was more or less speaking accurately for us both with what I said in my previous post.
[Which was: The god figure that feels real to you felt real to me for decades.]
If you don't think I was ever a real Christian [because I lost my faith], then, by that logic, we can say that nobody knows - including you - if you are a real Christian now or not.
And we won't know if you were a real Christian in 2019 until you reach the end of your life and do so without losing your faith.
By your logic, if you were to lose your faith in - say - 2020, then you could not be accurately described as having been a real Christian in 2019. Your logic, not mine.
We have been through this before.