@Ghost-of-a-Duke
When I was 13 I had a schoolfriend, Stephen, who was a really easy going guy who I'd known since primary school (had attended many of his birthday parties). He was the kind of kid who would have helped anybody and not said boo to a goose. Anyway, for whatever reason, he befriended a kid a few years older who was an outright bully. I still remember vividly during the summer holidays, playing tennis with the younger brother of another friend, when Stephen and this older kid decided to come and give us a hard time. While the older kid threatened me with a bottle, Stephen wound down the tennis net to prevent us from playing.
Any God who would burn people alive for all eternity is such a bully, and any Christian who would stand quietly in his shadow and not protest, is just another Stephen.
Thank you for sharing your personal experience there.
I don't share your conclusion or your accusation against God per se.
God has a job to inform us of something beyond our experience "under the sun" (as Solomon said) and on the
this side of the last judgment at the end of time.
I asked Dive to demonstrate that death meant non-existence in the Bible. He never did it to my recollection.
Since it is impossible for us to really comprehend some of these matters, He has to communicate to us truth in terms in which we can get it.
We will not enjoy remaining unforgiven and eternally separated from God. We will not enjoy being frozen in that kind of nature and unreconciled, unredeemed.
The terms by which God communicates this to us is His responsibly to warn us. And some of it may be preposterous because under the sun, in this realm of physical life, they sound impossible or too terrible.
As I read through the entire Bible, this feeling is neutralized when I see that His word in every regard should be taken with seriousness, though we cannot explain everything about those words.
The accumulative case is that I would be a fool to think He lies or speaks empty things not to be taken seriously.
Ghost, you do as you need to do.